Nesting

With ten days until my due date I feel like I am in a constant state of preparation, and my mind is always thinking of any thing I could possibly do now to make our transition with Miss Emmeline a little easier. Not only am I constantly cleaning, but things like routine trips to the store have now become a search for things that would be good to have on hand after the baby comes. Like today, I bought four cans of green beans to have on hand as sides for the meals I have frozen, and four jars of chicken sticks as easy meals for Addison. Along with frozen fruit and veggies in case we don't get a chance to get fresh produce for awhile. I am constantly picking up our house, just in case, and making lists of things that need to be done. Really, she just needs to get here, because let's be honest...these lists are never ending. Laundry never stops, dust never quits settling, dishes are always getting dirty, bathrooms always need to be cleaned, and the pantry and fridge always need restocking. For some reason I did not have these feelings with Addison...I think it has something to do with being a full time stay-at-home mom now...just like as a teacher you get your lesson plans all ready for your sub while your away. Getting the cleaning, food, etc. all together before Emmeline comes is like my version of getting my lesson plans ready for my sub.

What has hit me lately, though is my overwhelming desire to spend as much time as possible with Miss Addison. And this creates an interesting dynamic when mixed with all of the things that I'm trying to get done plus my severe lack of energy. But, I suddenly feel like I need to spend every second possible with her before both of our worlds are forever changed and it is no longer just she and I. I have been very blessed in the last week with some very sweet moments with her, at the park, and running through sprinklers, discovering ABC's, and learning to count to three. Running errands, picking out a new pair of sunglasses, silly faces, playing animals a million times, learning new songs, laughing as we play pretend, picking out cookies, cuddling, blowing bubbles, and coloring. I am so thankful that we have had these moments together recently. I know we will still have special memories together after Emmeline arrives, but these first almost two years with Addison will be cherished memories as I was learning how to do this mom thing, and getting to spend most every day with just the two of us.

Hmmm....this is not at all what this post started out to be...I guess I will try to write the post I was intending to write tomorrow. I guess for some reason I needed to write this one too. :)