Giving Myself Time

Hi Blog readers...if you're still there. If not, I understand. I know it's been awhile...like ten weeks. I know that that is a long time. But, like the title of this blog says, I've been giving myself time to adjust. It has been an amazing and almost indescribable ten weeks, but in the next few weeks I'm going to attempt to update my blog with things like Emmeline's birth story, her one month and two month posts, and Addison's two year old post...and maybe more...we'll see.

Here is the problem that I have. For the last ten weeks I have not gotten a full night's sleep. We are starting to get there, and Emmeline sleeping until about five-ish is doing wonders for my fatigue level, but still I can get pretty tired during the day. So, I start my day with less than a full night's sleep. I then add one extremely active and high energy toddler. Which then equals my crashing at nap time. Then, I get up at the end of nap time and once again have a very active, slightly more cranky toddler to take care of. Add picking up the house and fixing dinner and by Addison's 7:30 bedtime I'm ready to crash. BUT, my little perfect during the day Emmeline turns into a different little baby at about 7. She gets these crazy eyes and only wants to be held and suck on a pacifier until 10. At 10 I feed her, put her down and then literally crash into my bed...to start it all over again the next day.

So, if you were paying attention you might have noticed that my "personal time" during the day is the one hour that I lay down to nap, and right now a nap is my priority. It is becoming less and less of a priority and I'm looking forward to not needing a nap during the day, but for now I'm still giving myself that time to lay down and rest. Which means, I don't have any time to blog, that's right, zero, zilch. You might be wondering how exactly I'm blogging now. The answer is kind of sad, but it's simple. My sweet Emmeline got her first round of shots today and she is extra sleepy from them, so she is actually sleeping in her crib right now. It's amazing and I soooo look forward to when this is the norm and I have my evenings back. Soon, soon. :)

But, that's where I've been...giving myself time to adjust and slowly working back into a new normal. Hopefully I'll get those posts up soon. Thanks for hanging with me!! :)